Monday, May 30, 2005

Left On My Own

Russ left today for Ibiza. He packed his rubber gear and I expect he will return full of stories of highlife, hot sessions in backrooms and clubbing into the early hours. The Bank Holiday drive to Stanstead not half as awful as expected but the empty flat was quite a shock to return to and I know I will struggle for the next eight days to be constructive and creative without Russ around to keep me keen!

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hi Callum,

Fascinating, revealing, remarkably honest and in a noin sexual way, exposing- at another level quite beautiful, the vulnerability of a boy and adolscent's emerging sexuality, both straight, bi and gay.

I am already a little envious, not jealous, of Russ, as I beleong to a `ADd's generation, when we didn't even know how to tell of a "love that dare not speak its name".

I well remember sex play from around 13 to up to abouts 15 with other boys, we all talked about girls, our sexual ignorance was phenominal, I worried that I foud the other guys penis alurring, and not the rather frightening `pussy' of whioch we had little idea. The occasional glimpse of a girl had the same effect as a glimpse of a mate in an age when nakedness was strictly taboo - the effect of thsoe early orgasims were totally overwhelming, frightening because of the desire to possess and be possessed, to hold down and be held down- which irrepsective of orientation, persists in all sexual relationships.

I think if you read Pritchard's King DAvid - Janus Press, the chapter on David & Jonathon would bring many echoes of your experience and fantasy - allied exquisitlly in ther sensitive ectasy of love- where the emotion of wanting to hold and cherish the other, as mind, body, and yes, spirit are at one.

I'd love to meet you some time as Im ready and perhaps able with help to play the `Big Brother' easily and possible Father-Son

bi-is-great [ an affrimation or an apology?] davking2001@yahoo.co.uk


Sincererly


David

Anonymous said...

Hi Callum,

Fascinating, revealing, remarkably honest and in a noin sexual way, exposing- at another level quite beautiful, the vulnerability of a boy and adolscent's emerging sexuality, both straight, bi and gay.

I am already a little envious, not jealous, of Russ, as I beleong to a `ADd's generation, when we didn't even know how to tell of a "love that dare not speak its name".

I well remember sex play from around 13 to up to abouts 15 with other boys, we all talked about girls, our sexual ignorance was phenominal, I worried that I foud the other guys penis alurring, and not the rather frightening `pussy' of whioch we had little idea. The occasional glimpse of a girl had the same effect as a glimpse of a mate in an age when nakedness was strictly taboo - the effect of thsoe early orgasims were totally overwhelming, frightening because of the desire to possess and be possessed, to hold down and be held down- which irrepsective of orientation, persists in all sexual relationships.

I think if you read Pritchard's King DAvid - Janus Press, the chapter on David & Jonathon would bring many echoes of your experience and fantasy - allied exquisitlly in ther sensitive ectasy of love- where the emotion of wanting to hold and cherish the other, as mind, body, and yes, spirit are at one.

I'd love to meet you some time as Im ready and perhaps able with help to play the `Big Brother' easily and possible Father-Son

bi-is-great [ an affrimation or an apology?] davking2001@yahoo.co.uk


Sincererly


David

 
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